It’s the same smooth pavement I’m walking on
Same stairs, same way, no different direction
But for some reason I’m taking my time to get there
Steps heavier than usual, feels like I’m lost somewhere.
Randomized visuals, numbers mixed in every possible way
Words that are all so familiar, thoughts turning into haze
Next in line, heart pounded like crazy
Then I held it tight, two beats dropped, same old story.
First word, first line, I know something’s off
It’s not right, not like this but kept holding on
Maybe it’ll catch up in time, man, I couldn’t be more wrong
I evidently lost it, got no clue how to find it at all.
Kept on pressing, more than I think I should have
Piled it all up, I don’t care, I badly need to figure it out
Ended up still wondering, shattered in pieces
How could it be lost? I had it all these years!
I need answers, where can I find them?
Am I at fault? Should I take all the blame?
Or it’s you, the heartless monster I’ve always despised
Taking my life away, filling my head with lies.
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01172020
Lei. 